I will give a brief mention about the background that brought me to this moment. Over the years I have told many people they should write books, blogs, articles, poetry, and basically whatever. Then I realized a couple months ago that it is me who wants to write.
I mulled this thought around for a few months. Thought of doing it secretly so the people I know would not read it. I decided against that and spoke the sentence out loud the day after I joined this site. I said very quietly to my husband that I was thinking of doing a blog. He said very little and I let it drop. The ball was rolling.
Now it is a week later. My blog is set. My introduction was posted after 3 days of worrying. I have topics listed and a million ideas spinning around my head. Tonight I write about none of them. I am lucky to be writing at all. I have a huge case of stage fright or whatever the coined term is for person who is afraid to write publicly.
Knowing this was the day to write my post I woke and immediately started cleaning. That was followed by fooling around with my nook. I read about a free Friday book and did not even bother getting it. I sat down with my Ipad next and bought a budget app. This is really funny because I don’t even budget my check book. All the while I am feeling the time ticking away and I was still bloggless. I laid down for a nap, ran an errand, took care of a minor household repair, read writing articles, went back to the budget app, Skyped with my daughter that lives in Texas, made a blog folder for the notes I will never look to, and ended it all with a flipping on of the television. Only to realize I was going to drop from technology exhaustion if I did not break away from this paralyzing activity.
What better way to share my stumbling path than to show on the very first post the stumble. No meditation was done today. Never once did I pick up a dharma book to read. I didn’t even have patience or peace for my kids. It is now midnight and time to right my day. I am going to thank you in advance for reading my first post. Kiss my kids while they sleep. Hop in bed with a book by Geshe Kesang Gyatso and fall asleep (the Dalai Lama did say this was the best form of meditation) to the words of loving kindness. Ending the day exactly how I should have started it.
Peace and Flowers